Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I hate my clothes
Yes, I do realize this is a tad on the dramatic side but in my own defense, actively denying myself one of my greatest pleasures is just hard. I want so badly to just quit, and give in.... but at the same time, I won't.
I have even stopped buying so many shoes and accessories. In April, I only purchased a pair of black strappy wedge sandals, a belt, and some earrings. I am starting to realize that my shopping for clothing problem does not rest at clothing, but that it is just an addiction to spending. Whether its spending money on going out to eat, music, movies, drinks with friends, etc. I receive a huge thrill just being a tad bit irresponsible with my money. Well, starting in May, I'm done with that. I have refreshed my budget, allotting money towards paying down my debt (shoot paying it OFF) as well as a budget for going out, groceries, and extra expenses that come up. I simply do not want to live like this anymore.
So I wanted to post this and just let everyone know that I'm not some super human who can completely deny herself everything. It is painfully hard. And there are days when I want to throw in the towel, but I CAN'T.
To try to alleviate some of this heartache though, I have started sewing my denim shirt that I have been talking about for months. It is going surprisingly well despite having problems with the way my bobbin thread was wound. It took me so much longer just to get the darts done because of this issue! Pictures of progress soon.
Thank you for reading this far if you did. I could give you a prize but I don't have a prize to give.