Monday, May 24, 2010

In light of an absence... here is my excuse

Ugh... where to start.  First off, yes I am still alive.  Secondly, yes I am still slightly homeless.  Thirdly, I may not have a home but at least I have a place to stay (or places). 

Those are all the pertinent things to deal with.  I want to apologize...  I'm not feeling myself lately.  With everything that is going on, I definitely just feel a little helpless, depressed, and incredibly uninspired creatively.  This marks week 3 of living out of a suitcase, and pardon me for not being super excited to commemorate the fourth time I have worn my navy jersey shirt dress.  This means that Miss Bloggy Blog has taken a huge back seat.  It isn't that I have not had time to work on it or that I don't have time to upload pictures, its more just the fact that I don't feel like it.  I am the most unmotivated I have been in months which really troubles me. 

I have always struggled with patience.  I'd be a lot less naggy if I was patient.  I would be a lot less stressed if I was patient.  I would be a lot less tense if I was patient.  I would be a better poker player if I was patient (I constantly come up third in my works weekly poker tournaments mostly because I get impatient and just go all in on a dumb hand).  For some reason, I link waiting for something to just being depressed about it.  I know this does not make a lot of sense.  And when I take a step back from it, it really makes no sense.  It is almost like, I just want to crawl in a hole and sleep until something happens.  You can only be active on something for so long until it just starts to wear on you.

Without me updating my blog, its been struggling and so have I.  I just feel really disconnected from it and from the blogging community as a whole.  I feel disconnected with being fashionable and caring about my appearance.  Normally, I would go shopping, but instead I think I'd rather sleep.  I know that all of these feelings will pass.  That I will begin to feel better, to feel alive again.  But for right now, the days and weeks feel like an endless expanse desert. 

So this is my official saying that it may be a while before the blog is updated on a daily basis.  It may be a while before things start rolling again.  I will update intermittently, when I have a chance but for now, I need to be able to take this time and really start dealing with how this flood, this moving, and all of this change is affecting me emotionally and physically.  Please pardon me, while I get a grip. 


  1. I'm glad you're taking the time you need, although the situation sucks. I would feel similarly - I'm also impatient, but I think that's only natural. I hope things come back together for you an a great way very soon, Alyson! I'm pulling for you!

  2. I hope everything sorts out well and swiftly for you! Take care, feel better!

  3. hang in there, alyson! good things are coming your way.

  4. I know how you feel... a little bit. We moved almost 7 weeks ago into my in-laws house and I my Lizzy Brookes shop has been in vacation mode ever since. I'm not inspired, motivated and frankly I just feel tired of it. I'm trying to look at it as a true vacation and enjoy things being different, slower and just not as creative. I'm not in my house, with my kitchen (that's where I sew) and all my supplies are in storage. It's not going to be forever, it's only a season. I'm going to try and make the best out of the situation. It's hard- but that's when character comes out! Right? Hang in there!

  5. I saw last night that you tweeted about signing a lease on a new apt. Good luck with everything, and always remember that we aren't going anywhere. Seriously, the blogosphere will not collapse in your absence. Miss you, and see you soon.

  6. Amberly9:02 AM

    Lady I love ya and if you need anything you just let me know! I miss you so much! I hope that you are feeling better and if you need to vent or just talk or just escape my place is always open!


  7. I hope everything turns out again. We'll be here when you come back.



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